Today was really good. But the [sic] again everyday [sic] I breathe is a good one. I am so thankful for life and everyone I have in mine. I could never ask for better people. I could never imagine losing any of them. I just hope that if I was ever in that situation that you would be there with me every step of the way and that they come to live with you forever. I get scared sometimes that I will lose someone that didn't know you. I don't think I could handle that. I want you to be with everyone [sic] of my friends and grant them the opportunity to know you. I need that closure. God, you are amazing and I've seen all you can do. I know you have a plan for me. I'm working on figuring that plan out. I don't want to go my whole life without knowing. I know you're there. I've got nothing to lose. God test me. You'll see. I'll show you that I love you.
In your name I pray.